My Story

I have struggled with my weight my entire adult life. At my heaviest, I was 220lbs and at 5’2, that ain’t pretty. The day that I realized that I was fat I began Weight Watchers online. I did the flex plan and lost about 14lbs but I wasn’t getting results fast enough. I tried the atkins diet and the weight melted off; I lost 40lbs in a matter of a couple months. I was in the 160’s rockin’ my size 14 clothes until one day my toe hurt so bad I couldn’t walk. Atkins had given me gout; my doctor told me to stop the diet right away. So, I moved on to The Dr. Phil diet followed by a year long hiatus. During that time, I gained back 20lbs.

When I realized that I had gained so much back, I went back to doing weight watchers online. Again, I started with the flex plan and after a week, I switched to core. On core, I learned about eating healthy and how to eat when I was hungry and stop when I was satisfied. Things I had never known about in my entire life. Up until that point, I thought that stuffed was the normal feeling after eating. I had never been taught about portion sizes or even that you should only eat when you are hungry. I believe that core saved my life.

I followed the core program for about a year and made my way down to 143. That is when I heard of intuitve eating. I read every book about IE that I could meanwhile trying to put the principles into practice. I started digging deep into my emotions and learing all of the reasons why I choose food as my main source of comfort. And some how all of this turned into binge eating. I was doing myself more harm than good.  I gained almost 20lbs and with my wedding looming around the corner, I decided it was time to diet again. Back on core I went.

Then, I began the vicious cycle of diet and binge. I would follow core for a few days and then delve deep into a binge. Then back on core I’d go. This happened for months. Finally, I got married and went on my honeymoon. I gained another 10lbs. When we returned, my first instinct was to go back on core, so I did. And low and behold the diet and binge cycle began again except this time a day or two of dieting would send me into binge mode. And that is when I decided that I had to give intuitive eating another shot. But this time, I had to actually do it. I couldn’t use it as an excuse to curl up with a jar of nutella every night.

So, I have been trying to put into place some of the intuitive eating principles and just be happy with my self and food. My weights seems to be fluctuating up and down a few pounds which is normal. One of the principles of intuitive eating is that you have to be happy with the way that you are and that it shouldn’t be just another form of a diet. I’m learning to love my body for what it is and am becoming happier with my weight. One thing is for sure, i’d rather be the size that I am than diet and binge for the rest of my life.

If you have any questions, please feel free to email me at whatiateyesterday [at] gmail.com

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13 Responses

  1. I have difficulties with food, in that I emotionally eat often. I am trying to combat that right now, but it is not always successful. However, I am optimistic that one day I can truly overcome this. I am slowly finding ways to keep myself emotionally-well, such as taking walks when I need to or just simply listening to music. I also mindlessly eat too.

    I am trying to focus on a healthy lifestyle change, rather than merely going on a diet.

    Good luck with your journey!

  2. Eating out of emotion is a huge problem for me. Hang in there, we can do it!

  3. Great story. I also got gout when I when on a high protein and low carb diet.

  4. What an incredible story. I’m so glad I found your blog.

  5. i second all the above opinions. It’s embarrassing (and a little sad) to admit that food has such a hold on my life. I eat for thousands of reasons: emotions, anxiety/stress, boredom, simply to EAT, the list goes on. I thought I was the only one who suffered from a disordered relationship with food. I was overjoyed to come across so many bloggers who had stories very similar to mine. It showed me I was not alone, and that I can’t give up. I applaud your decision to start a blog, and wish you all the luck in the world toward achieving your goals and finding peace with your body. I hope we can all reach that point one day.

  6. I found your site on technorati and read a few of your other posts. Keep up the good work. I just added your RSS feed to my Google News Reader. Looking forward to reading more from you down the road!

  7. Thank you for sharing your story! I have heard of intuitive eating, and have always been curious about it. I, too, struggle with binge eating and the constant struggle to really be happy with whatever size my bodies feels it should be. I’m glad I found your blog!

  8. Hey Christie!
    I just wanted to tell you I love your blog and am so glad we found each other through the blogosphere – you are bookmarked and a new fave! Love your point of view, honesty and the pics 🙂
    x,
    Leslie (Weighting Game)

  9. Thank you so much for your comment on my latest blog post. I’ve added you to my blog reader, and I’m looking forward to reading through your blog!

  10. I never heard of intuitive eating. I’ll have to look that up.

    i have overeating problems too. I can’t tell you how sick I am of it. I’ve never told anyone (friends/family) about my problem. It’s embarrassing.

    I have been sucessful with South Beath Diet..low carb..in the past. I think Atkins is similar…and you got the gout. Were you just eating protein? Is that why you got the gout? I never heard of that happening before to a low carber.

    Good luck to you and to all who struggle with this! We can beat this thing.

  11. HI karen, welcome to my blog! I was not eating just protein on atkins, I was following it as written. Gout is pretty common with people following low carb diets but it is genetic, I believe. Some people can not metabolize high amounts of protein and it cause crystals to form in the toe joints. It is not fun, I assure you!

  12. What a great story and outlook you have! I really admire how far you’ve come and the place you’ve landed. I can’t wait to read more!

  13. way to go… i’m working on feeling the “hunger” and “satisfied” ques that my body produces after mixed messages from my bulimia… it’s been challenging, but seeing other people doing it helps give me hope that one day i’ll be “normal” with food- hopefully. keep up the inspiration! xo

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