Yesterday was a hard day for me, mentally. After much thought, I have decided to join weight watchers again doing the flex plan. I hope this doesn’t let you all down but I strongly feel that this is what I need right now. I feel like I keep taking 1 step forward and 2 steps back which is leading me to gain weight at an insane rate. I was doing fine with intuitive eating until my therapy intensified and as I suspected, I started packing on the pounds as soon as therapy got hard again. I feel like right now the work of intuitive eating and the work in therapy is just too much and that growing too big for my clothes on top of that is just unbearable.
Who knows, maybe tomorrow, after counting points for the day, I will change my mind. But as of this moment, I need to try this and see how it feels. I do promise that if this leads me to feel hungry or to start binging, I will stop the diet…er…lifestyle change. I still plan to write my blog and work on the things that I need to work on in order to find my own happiness. I hope you all will understand and keep reading and being the wonderful system of support that you have been thus far.