They say you don’t miss something until it is gone for a reason. Four days without the internet really sucks! I don’t think I realized how much I actually rely on it for my day to day life. I needed to balance my checkbook, no go. I needed a recipe, no go. I needed to get escape sheer boredom, no go. Needless to say, I am thankful that my internet is working again. Despite the fact that the new modem is not compatible with our internet phone so now we are without a telephone. But I have a cell phone and I CAN surf the web.
The last few days were odd for me. I’m not sure what I was going through but I had some major cravings for cheese, ice cream and yogurt. Parts of me wonder if I need the calcium or if I am suffering a bit of deprivation from not eating dairy. I also came to realize how dependent I have become on blogging as it relates to my relationship with food. I kept having the devil on my shoulder reminding me that no one was watching and that I could eat whatever I wanted. It made me wonder if this blog has become my new diet. I don’t want it to be, I want it to be a place where I can be open and honest about food and all of the struggles I have with it. So, in honor of that, I must tell you that I ate a burger and fries followed by ice cream for dinner only after indulging at PF Changs for lunch. Phew. Glad that is out.
OK, no onto yesterday. I woke up and got ready for work and made a quick breakfast as I have been trying to get to work earlier to compensate for how busy we are. I had a bowl of Live Active cereal topped with a sliced banana, some almonds and vanilla almond milk. Once again, I enjoyed the pleasures of having a non dairy milk. I am so glad my eyes have been opened to the many options available!
I got to work and things were nuts, of course. The beginning of the month is always the worst because we are under multiple deadlines. We have to get the statements out, close sales for the previous month, reconcile accounts and get the inventory settled. Generally, it is about 5 days worked crammed into a day and a half. Fun stuff. I was so focused on work that I almost missed staff lunch. Luckily, I realized it just in time and made my way downstairs. We have a new chef and he is really trying to get things sorted out so the staff lunch was a hodge podge of things. I finally settled on a grilled chicken sandwich and fruit salad. My only bread option was a kaiser roll so I asked for a couple of slices of wheat bread to make mine. I topped it with lettuce, tomato and mustard. It was kind of bland but since it was free, I’m not complaining.
A few hours later, my stomach started to churn and I decided it was the perfect time to eat my ever anticipated PEANUT BUTTER COOKIE LARABAR!!! The lovely Caitlin at See Bride Run was so sweet to mail me one after I mentioned on her blog that I couldn’t find them. So, I must thank her as I thought this was a really sweet gesture, so Thank You, Caitlin! Now, onto what I thought of the bar. It was really good, it had a awesome flavor and was very reminiscent of a peanut butter cookie. It moved its way into my second favorite LARABAR spot, the first being the pecan pie one which I discovered while I was on hiatus.
After my snack, I stayed very busy throughout the afternoon and even had to work late. By the time I made it home, I was really hungry. I had taken some tofu parm out of the freezer to reheat. I baked it in the toaster over for about 45 minutes and then topped it with marinara sauce and soy cheese over whole wheat couscous. On the side we had a small salad with oil and vinegar.
For dessert, I had a slice of almond poppy seed bread that I made from this recipe. I used white whole wheat flour and it turned out great. I toasted my slice and topped it with a little light smart balance. I will be making this bread again and again, just like mom used to.
After dinner and dessert, I did my 15 minute cleanup and then settled in to watch some tv. It had been a really long day and the only thing on my mind was relaxing.
QOTD: How do you view your food blog with respect to your relationship with food?